Cement Girl

The last few days have been busy, which is good. Nick and I are mad at each other, or at least he's mad at me.

Friday night April, Charity and I went to see The carolines and Dolour play at the meowmeow which was great and amazing. Dolour put on a good show, but i was there to see The Carolines, who... I hadn't seen play since April (that's a long drought for me!).. So i was really excited to see them play, and they put on an awesome show. They always get me to grooving around, and I just closed my eyes.. it's so beautiful, and Nathan plays SO well.. i'm always amazed.

April spent the night, and then we got up this morning, left the house and didn't get back till 9:30! We went and saw her cousin's new baby (Miles Gregory who is as cute .. well as a button. He's adorable, and i'm not just saying that.. he's a really cute baby). Then we went to her house, and we were going to go to a 4 o'clock showing of Catch Me If You Can, but it was sold out. So we bought tickets for the 7pm show, and went shopping to kill time! So of course I ended up with this really cute long wool skirt and black button up shirt from Old Navy. I adore it. Too bad i had to spend my money on it.

Then we looked around Border's, bought magazines and read in the cafe until it was time for the show. This is how you can tell how different April and I are. She bought and read People magazine. I bought and read Punk Planet (which i ... it was my first issue ever to read. I didn't finish it).

Anyway. Then we saw the movie and it was good. It was a LOT of fun, and i'm glad i spent the money on it.

Tomorrow is my party! I thought it would never get here, I'm so excited. Tomorrow after church we have to go shopping for some snacks, and I need to call a bowling alley, and then call my PA, courtney to give her directions. I'm excited. I love my girls and can't wait to see them!

I got the new Wallflowers cd, and the new Coldplay, and i think I'm in love.

"You won't believe just how good it can get
We'll make a lover out of you yet"-Wallflowers

This is definitely weird.

Sitting in my bedroom at my parents' house. I'm listening to Counting Crows'- Long December. "Maybe this year will be better than the last". I'm talking to both Nick and Seth on the computer, and my stomach feels weird. I've got this new year ahead of me that just might prove to be the hardest and most rewarding ever. My parents are probably going to be moving. My niece will be born in March sometime. Hopefully I'll get a PA position.

It is so weird to move on. It's eery to watch the past like it was yesterday, and know how much I've grown. I'm so scared to grow up. I don't want to turn into someone that's not me. I'm afraid that this might be a defining moment.

The chowder preparation began this morning.

I got up at 7:30 so i could shower and get ready before picking up my grandma. I was going to take her to the medical lab. Anyway- we got there and it was closed. She swore up and down that they told her to come in today.. SO! i got home and had nothing to do... i got online for a while, and then decided to start preparing for chowder.

10:30; Peel and chop 4 potatoes. They have to be about the size of a dime (except in square shape) in diameter, and only about 1/4 of an inch thick
10:50-Cut and chop an onion. This takes a while because I don't want to get some chopper out and dirty it, so i just chop it all myself. I did pretty good on the crying bit. I held it together.
11:10-Slice and Cut four stalks of celery (stalks? are they called stalks?). Anyway, each thing gets sliced all the way down about three or four times, then chopped really small.
11:30- Cut and fry bacon. tada!

Now i just have to wait until about 5 to start cooking the rest. Isn't this exciting? It's like Meghan's cooking channel. Her blog channel. Okay maybe not, cause i'm not going to tell you what else goes in the chowder. You'd have to figure that out on your own.

I discovered a new Switchfoot mp3!! it makes me so excited. Good Good stuff. Definitely more rocky than stuff in the past, and i'm just really excited. To find the link, go to this That leads you to a thread on the SF message board, where the guy gives an mp3 link. If it won't let you download, right click on his link and choose "Save Target As". It's quite lovely. Here are the lyrics.
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"fumbling his confidence
and wondering why the world has passed him by
hoping that he’s bent for more than arguments
and failed attempts to fly (fly)

we were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
somewhere we live inside
somewhere we live inside

we were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
somewhere we live inside

dreaming about providence
and whether mice and men have second tries
maybe we’ve been livin with our eyes half open
maybe we’re bent and broken (broken)

we were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
somewhere we live inside
somewhere we live inside
we were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
somewhere we live inside

we want more than this world’s got to offer
we want more than this world’s got to offer
we want more than the wars of our fathers
and everything inside screams for second life

we were meant to live for so much more"-Switchfoot

He came to earth so that we could have something else to live for. Something besides the self-gratification, materialism and greed this world thinks we should want. Christ came humbly so that we could learn from Him what it means to live, to fully live for others. Through His love and grace and have so much more to live for. Joy to the world, the Lord has come. Merry Christmas :)

{ahem} So today i talked to two people i don't really know, on AIM. and I realized what a complete nutcase I am, by doing so.

My cookies turned out well. Half are oatmeal raisin, and half are oatmeal chocolate chip. yay.

I went out to run an errand today, and took the long way. I went to a bank by the college, and a dollar tree store that is farther away.. felt good to just drive around, and listen to my music. Nice nice.

So.... enough of this self pity stuff. Let's talk about my boring life!! Yay! (har har har)

Today i woke up at ten. That was nice. I ate some fake cinnamon toast crunch and a banana while watching some of the View. Ohyeah. Then I got online and tried to look up someone who i used to post with on the POD boards, and wanted to thank him for making me listen to Brandtson. I PMed him- he posts on another board now.

Today I have certain things to do, which is interesting. I have to make oatmeal cookies, and then go to the dollar store to find wedding cards. Then tonight my mom and I are going to Laura's wedding. That means I have to dress up :( GAG. i need to do some laundry. I guess those are all my plans for today. Tomorrow I make clam chowder for Christmas eve family get together. That is mega-exciting, I know. I could do a play by play with the clam chowder, that could be fun. I'll start about 3pm tomorrow, to have it done by 7. I used to help make clam chowder at the deli, this summer, so i know what I'm doing (plus i called my aunt and got more specific directions). It is a definite undertaking.. I mean.. this is HOMEMADE. I do everything BUT shuck my own clams (you buy those at costco). Hopefully it will turn out okay. I will be a major cook tomorrow.. so watch out! Maybe I can't share the step by step process.. hmm.. It IS a kinda secret recipe. So nevermind, but I will tell you some steps.

I've been watching this Rock and Roll documentary that I got from the library. It's .. ohh.. about ten hours long or something. I got the first video, watched those two hours, returned it and got the next video. I've been learning a lot... about how rock and roll got started, and what it stemmed from. The episode I watched yesterday was about Bob Dylan and the Beatles, and how they were doing new things and all that. I mean, myself, as a child of the late 80's, early 90's, I think about the Beatles and I just know they were a great rock band, but I don't think about how they changed things, you know? I mean, those two groups were big innovators of how you could put music together and combine different styles of music to make a new one. Plus! I never realized how much they influenced each other during those times.. that like, Bob Dylan influenced John Lennon, etc... I guess mentally I don't put Bob Dylan and the Beatles in the same.. thought.

So anyway. I'm learning a lot. The next episode is about black gospel music combining with soul (I think) and making motown type stuff, like Aretha Franklin. That shall be interesting. I will keep you updated! (i know you want to know!)

in other news.. i added and corrected some links over there to the side.. I still need to do some more. Check out Effin's live journal.. i love reading it cause it's just wacky and he's got a great sense of humor. It's good for entertainment purposes. I also added a great quote from a great band at the top of the screen that is very useful in categorizing all this blogging business. I love you Dear Ephesus! Today is monday so now I will be making my way over to the homestar runner website to check on the new strong bad e-mail!
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"No sounds
Yet echoes in the room
Loud voices telling lies to their own truth
Here is something for you to write down in your journal
Here is nothing for you to write down in your journal

Carry on you're a deaf man
You can never believe just what you hear
Carry on you're a blind man
You can never believe just what you see

Am I documentary?
I must be a documentary.

Fly fishing 'cross the rivers of Colorado
Hey mother do you think that I'm a man yet?
Hey mother do you think that I'm a man?
[chorus]

carry on you're a deaf man
You can never believe just what you hear
{speaking when there's no words}
Carry on you're a blind man
You can never believe just what you see
{speaking when there's no words}
Carry on you're a deaf man
You can never believe just what you hear
{speaking when there's no words}
Carry on, Carry on
You can never believe just what you see "-Dear Ephesus

and again.

trying to fix stuff.... hold on.