Friday, May 09, 2003
hey kiddies.
if you love me you will e-mail me :)
No, really. I will be without internet for a few weeks. I will check my e-mail and stuff, but i won't be able to update this or chat or go to message boards really... so e-mail me and make me happy. I promise to write you back.
thenewdroan@yahoo.com
Eeeeeee summer.
if you love me you will e-mail me :)
No, really. I will be without internet for a few weeks. I will check my e-mail and stuff, but i won't be able to update this or chat or go to message boards really... so e-mail me and make me happy. I promise to write you back.
thenewdroan@yahoo.com
Eeeeeee summer.
Thursday, May 08, 2003
I got my first whiff of summer tonight. I sat in my best friend's new apartment... ooing and aahing over everything- it's brand new (well one person's lived in it, i think)... but it's so awesome, new and modern. And we were sitting there by ourselves, and i'm just like "this is so weiiirddd.. no parents at all- this is your OWN place." and her two brothers were over, and her sister's fiance. It was so weird. Then Sarah came over.. and it was like we'd all been together all along. I drove back to school with Red Animal War blazing and that was my first whiff of summer. I had looked at april in the apt and said "I have no homework to think about!!!!" all i have to think about is packing this place up.
Which is what i've been doing for the last two hours. I'm going to go watch sixteen candles maybe.. if april didn't already take it back to her apt, but i have a feeling she did.
But anyway. I've been sitting here packing up. I can feel a new chapter in my life starting, and i'm so excited. So so excited and I don't even know what's going to happen yet. Usually I would have qualms, or feel sad about leaving the dorms.. i did last year. But i guess i'm just ready to leave. Ready to leave my sophomore year behind me. It's so weird- I can't even remember this year, i don't even remember if anything substantial happened. It just seems like a "nothing' year right now. So i'm listening to the best cd for a new change in my life. Switchfoot's "Legend of Chin". Because (i know this is so incredibly corny... but.) it's been there in all the changes. Six years running now.. my favorite cd.. ever. This is perfect. Absolutely perfect.
"Don't be there
Cause I'm on my way
And I'm already gone over
And i'm on my way
And I can't recall myself
How i went down
Did i get shot
or shoot myself
I'm down here
And you're way up there
But that doesn't hurt badly
But it stings right here
And i won't pretend there's nothing there
You'll be around
And I'll be square
Don't be alarmed if I'm not there
You be around
And i'll be square
If you're a rose
Then I'm the thorn
That's in your side
And does it hurt badly
Cause it burns right here
I'd like to say hello
I'd like to say i care
Id like to let you know
That nothing here's the same with me
Nothing here's the same
Don't be around
Don't be there"-SF
Which is what i've been doing for the last two hours. I'm going to go watch sixteen candles maybe.. if april didn't already take it back to her apt, but i have a feeling she did.
But anyway. I've been sitting here packing up. I can feel a new chapter in my life starting, and i'm so excited. So so excited and I don't even know what's going to happen yet. Usually I would have qualms, or feel sad about leaving the dorms.. i did last year. But i guess i'm just ready to leave. Ready to leave my sophomore year behind me. It's so weird- I can't even remember this year, i don't even remember if anything substantial happened. It just seems like a "nothing' year right now. So i'm listening to the best cd for a new change in my life. Switchfoot's "Legend of Chin". Because (i know this is so incredibly corny... but.) it's been there in all the changes. Six years running now.. my favorite cd.. ever. This is perfect. Absolutely perfect.
"Don't be there
Cause I'm on my way
And I'm already gone over
And i'm on my way
And I can't recall myself
How i went down
Did i get shot
or shoot myself
I'm down here
And you're way up there
But that doesn't hurt badly
But it stings right here
And i won't pretend there's nothing there
You'll be around
And I'll be square
Don't be alarmed if I'm not there
You be around
And i'll be square
If you're a rose
Then I'm the thorn
That's in your side
And does it hurt badly
Cause it burns right here
I'd like to say hello
I'd like to say i care
Id like to let you know
That nothing here's the same with me
Nothing here's the same
Don't be around
Don't be there"-SF
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
I didn't really want to write about this, but if i don't write about it, then what's the point of the blog, right?
Yesterday i popped in Moby's "Play" cd. Fun stuff. Weird memories. I bought it because of Seth, basically. I grew to love it on my own. I would drive to work last summer and turn up the fun, upbeat songs. There's a particular song on there with a very distinct and obvious bass line, and i loved it. anyway- that brought back memories.
So now it'll start to be summer. And when I drive anywhere in my car with no air conditioning, or I'll listen to something like twothirtyeight's "regulate the chemicals" or especially Brandtson's "letterbox", it will bring back all of those things. The heat on the back, the awkwardness. 16 days in a motorhome. Making sandwiches for tourists.
I can't believe it's been almost a year. I don't even think I can remember this last year, it's so far removed, i feel so far removed from it. And still I can remember those moments last July. The anticipation. I was just reading his blog, reading through old entries, and I remembered why i fell for him so hard... and then I listen to those cds (re: Brandtson's "Summer in St. Claire") and remember why I said no. And i remember that hug.
I watched my cornerstone video the other day because I had yet to finish transferring it to an actual videotape. When i sit and think about those things... it feels like I was a completely different person.
So with all of those things that happened last summer I wonder what this summer has for me. I'm really just looking forward to relaxing and working, and reading and doing things to keep myself busy. Then there's walkabout, and coming back to school next August to be a PA.
It's weird when you don't really have any expectations for the summer. I had so many last year. So, so many. I remember telling Seth before we met "well, after July i'll be a different person, no matter what happens". And I'm wondering if I'll be able to share the same sentiment this year.
Life is a funny thing.
Yesterday i popped in Moby's "Play" cd. Fun stuff. Weird memories. I bought it because of Seth, basically. I grew to love it on my own. I would drive to work last summer and turn up the fun, upbeat songs. There's a particular song on there with a very distinct and obvious bass line, and i loved it. anyway- that brought back memories.
So now it'll start to be summer. And when I drive anywhere in my car with no air conditioning, or I'll listen to something like twothirtyeight's "regulate the chemicals" or especially Brandtson's "letterbox", it will bring back all of those things. The heat on the back, the awkwardness. 16 days in a motorhome. Making sandwiches for tourists.
I can't believe it's been almost a year. I don't even think I can remember this last year, it's so far removed, i feel so far removed from it. And still I can remember those moments last July. The anticipation. I was just reading his blog, reading through old entries, and I remembered why i fell for him so hard... and then I listen to those cds (re: Brandtson's "Summer in St. Claire") and remember why I said no. And i remember that hug.
I watched my cornerstone video the other day because I had yet to finish transferring it to an actual videotape. When i sit and think about those things... it feels like I was a completely different person.
So with all of those things that happened last summer I wonder what this summer has for me. I'm really just looking forward to relaxing and working, and reading and doing things to keep myself busy. Then there's walkabout, and coming back to school next August to be a PA.
It's weird when you don't really have any expectations for the summer. I had so many last year. So, so many. I remember telling Seth before we met "well, after July i'll be a different person, no matter what happens". And I'm wondering if I'll be able to share the same sentiment this year.
Life is a funny thing.
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
So SF was on Craig Kilborn last night. Absolutely Surreal. I'm sitting there watching it, and just say "Switchfoot is on tv.. this is so weird". Cause when i got caught up in it, it was like i was at a concert, then i had to remind myself i was watching tv. (I know, i sound like i'm about 14 right now). I mean, I feel like I've watched these guys grow up. From 1997... and i've seen then 10 times, and met them, and it's just weird. and then they're on tv? only big bands get on tv.
Anyway. enough of that. I saw Waiting for Guffman for the first time last night. it was pretty freakin' funny. I loved it. I laughed the whole time. Refreshments were prepared by my lovely roomate.. mmm brownies and milk.
I just finished my last paper of my sophomore year. That's the most exciting thing of my evening. Hip hip. It is actually exciting though.. no more papers! Only one more final tomorrow afternoon that i don't care about.
So Friday afternoon i move home. It's going to be an interesting couple of weeks. I move home Friday at 4. Joel and Rinda are coming for the weekend with Hannah. And they are staying at my parents' apt too. So that means I get to sleep on the loveseat. a loveseat!! Let's see... so that's for the weekend. Then Rinda and Hannah are staying at the little apt for two weeks while Rinda finishes two weeks of student teaching. While she's student teaching during the day, I'll be babysitting Hannah... which should prove interesting, and lovely, and wonderful, and difficult. But i'll be able to start my rug, and read, and watch movies. So it should be a good time. I'll take Hannah out to visit people, and to shop, and to the library, etc. Goooooood times.
I guess that's all. We're supposed to watch Cold Comfort Farm tonight at Matt's.. we'll see what that's like.
Anyway. enough of that. I saw Waiting for Guffman for the first time last night. it was pretty freakin' funny. I loved it. I laughed the whole time. Refreshments were prepared by my lovely roomate.. mmm brownies and milk.
I just finished my last paper of my sophomore year. That's the most exciting thing of my evening. Hip hip. It is actually exciting though.. no more papers! Only one more final tomorrow afternoon that i don't care about.
So Friday afternoon i move home. It's going to be an interesting couple of weeks. I move home Friday at 4. Joel and Rinda are coming for the weekend with Hannah. And they are staying at my parents' apt too. So that means I get to sleep on the loveseat. a loveseat!! Let's see... so that's for the weekend. Then Rinda and Hannah are staying at the little apt for two weeks while Rinda finishes two weeks of student teaching. While she's student teaching during the day, I'll be babysitting Hannah... which should prove interesting, and lovely, and wonderful, and difficult. But i'll be able to start my rug, and read, and watch movies. So it should be a good time. I'll take Hannah out to visit people, and to shop, and to the library, etc. Goooooood times.
I guess that's all. We're supposed to watch Cold Comfort Farm tonight at Matt's.. we'll see what that's like.
Monday, May 05, 2003
