Friday, February 28, 2003
This is just going to be one of those random journal postings cause i don't have much to talk about.
Yesterday in my 4pm Intro to Ed class we had a test on stuff, and i feel REALLY good about it. I studied all these facts out of the book, when all we did was do essay stuff. I filled two pages of notebook paper front and back, and i just feel really good about it. I turned it into her and said "I could've written a book!" The last question was especially good cause it was all opinion, which was fun. I just went off about the school system. :) felt good!
Then Natalie and I went to dinner. Then I had a short accountability group meeting. It's not really accountability, just more of a group of us girls getting together with this lady that works in admissions, and we just talk about random things.
Then I came back here, and around 9:15 Natalie, April and I had another dance party to the new switchfoot cd. That, seriously, is the best way to get out stress. You can just jump around and yell and be dorks together. and it's FUN. Natalie's friend Matt called during our dance party and wanted to know if we wanted to go over to a house to play some game called Wizard with some other guys, so we cooled off a little, and went over. While we were cooling off, April was fooling around on my bass. She was just playing random notes, and i started singing tracy chapman "Baby i got your number, and i know that you got mine". haha... Our windows were wide open to get cool air through our room, and Alicia (my former PA) and Lyndsy (a PA) were outside and were all "oh yeah!!" haha. that was kinda funny.
So Natalie and I went to play that Wizard card game with Matt, Jon and Tim... it was.. interesting. I'm too dense to even understand how it's played, but i just played along anyway. Then Natalie and I went over to basketball Intramurals at 11:30 to watch a game finish up, and watch Matt's game. then it was seriously bedtime at 12:30 when we got back.
This morning I made myself get out of bed, cause i knew today was a workday in yearbook. Got up, got ready, and marched myself down to the student union. Was anybody in that room? no. Grrrr. So now I have to go in after lunch. Fun way to spend my afternoon. Tonight Natalie and I are going to go see this guy named Dan Hawk play at a coffee shop. He randomly e-mailed me and told me about it, and how i should come. We went to see him play before, and then he showed up on the Switchfoot message board, and i said "hey! i saw you play"... so he invited me again. Fun, he's got good stuff.
And i have a job for tomorrow! i'm excited. I was afraid I just wasn't going to be getting any other jobs. But it's from 4-11 (or so, she said) tomorrow night, and it's really close to here, which is good. Also, it's for three boys, which means I get paid 11 bucks an hour. Hip hip hooray. Also, this means I can help my parents with moving, a little bit tomorrow, because my job is at night and not during the day.
it's all in a weird in-between stage right now. I called my mom the other day and asked where exactly we were going to be on Sunday, cause we usually go to our house after church. She said she didn't know.. probably the apt. weird weird weird.
"more than fine
more than bent on getting by
more than fine
more than just okay"-Sf
Yesterday in my 4pm Intro to Ed class we had a test on stuff, and i feel REALLY good about it. I studied all these facts out of the book, when all we did was do essay stuff. I filled two pages of notebook paper front and back, and i just feel really good about it. I turned it into her and said "I could've written a book!" The last question was especially good cause it was all opinion, which was fun. I just went off about the school system. :) felt good!
Then Natalie and I went to dinner. Then I had a short accountability group meeting. It's not really accountability, just more of a group of us girls getting together with this lady that works in admissions, and we just talk about random things.
Then I came back here, and around 9:15 Natalie, April and I had another dance party to the new switchfoot cd. That, seriously, is the best way to get out stress. You can just jump around and yell and be dorks together. and it's FUN. Natalie's friend Matt called during our dance party and wanted to know if we wanted to go over to a house to play some game called Wizard with some other guys, so we cooled off a little, and went over. While we were cooling off, April was fooling around on my bass. She was just playing random notes, and i started singing tracy chapman "Baby i got your number, and i know that you got mine". haha... Our windows were wide open to get cool air through our room, and Alicia (my former PA) and Lyndsy (a PA) were outside and were all "oh yeah!!" haha. that was kinda funny.
So Natalie and I went to play that Wizard card game with Matt, Jon and Tim... it was.. interesting. I'm too dense to even understand how it's played, but i just played along anyway. Then Natalie and I went over to basketball Intramurals at 11:30 to watch a game finish up, and watch Matt's game. then it was seriously bedtime at 12:30 when we got back.
This morning I made myself get out of bed, cause i knew today was a workday in yearbook. Got up, got ready, and marched myself down to the student union. Was anybody in that room? no. Grrrr. So now I have to go in after lunch. Fun way to spend my afternoon. Tonight Natalie and I are going to go see this guy named Dan Hawk play at a coffee shop. He randomly e-mailed me and told me about it, and how i should come. We went to see him play before, and then he showed up on the Switchfoot message board, and i said "hey! i saw you play"... so he invited me again. Fun, he's got good stuff.
And i have a job for tomorrow! i'm excited. I was afraid I just wasn't going to be getting any other jobs. But it's from 4-11 (or so, she said) tomorrow night, and it's really close to here, which is good. Also, it's for three boys, which means I get paid 11 bucks an hour. Hip hip hooray. Also, this means I can help my parents with moving, a little bit tomorrow, because my job is at night and not during the day.
it's all in a weird in-between stage right now. I called my mom the other day and asked where exactly we were going to be on Sunday, cause we usually go to our house after church. She said she didn't know.. probably the apt. weird weird weird.
"more than fine
more than bent on getting by
more than fine
more than just okay"-Sf
Wednesday, February 26, 2003
What a busy day! Fo' reals. Let's do a rundown.
9am- Spiritual Formation class
10:15- head to Tower, buy two new SF cds.
10:40- arrive at chapel late
11:30- head to lunch
11:55- back to my dorm
noon- listen to the new switchfoot cd straight through with headphones on, sitting on my bed. Cry. Laugh. All that good stuff.
1pm- PA interview. Wow. yeah.
2:30-Vocal Jazz class
4-Meet with practicum teacher
5-dinner
5:45-take pictures of an outreach project for yearbook
6-class
8:30- make it back to dorm room. Chat with random people and Nick. Write my lit paper for like three hours.
midnight- have spontaneous dance party in room with Natalie and April, to the new Sf cd, to "Gone", "ammunition" and "Adding to the noise". Kinda a weird dance party considering we couldn't turn the music up loud, and we couldn't BE loud which meant no stomping. Shoo'. Even still our PA came to tell to be quiet. Perfect timing cause we were just sitting back down to our homework, and we looked all innocent "what do you mean? we've been perfectly quiet". haha. pretty fun. Now I'm about to go to bed. woosh.
"we've been blowing up
we're the issue""-SF
9am- Spiritual Formation class
10:15- head to Tower, buy two new SF cds.
10:40- arrive at chapel late
11:30- head to lunch
11:55- back to my dorm
noon- listen to the new switchfoot cd straight through with headphones on, sitting on my bed. Cry. Laugh. All that good stuff.
1pm- PA interview. Wow. yeah.
2:30-Vocal Jazz class
4-Meet with practicum teacher
5-dinner
5:45-take pictures of an outreach project for yearbook
6-class
8:30- make it back to dorm room. Chat with random people and Nick. Write my lit paper for like three hours.
midnight- have spontaneous dance party in room with Natalie and April, to the new Sf cd, to "Gone", "ammunition" and "Adding to the noise". Kinda a weird dance party considering we couldn't turn the music up loud, and we couldn't BE loud which meant no stomping. Shoo'. Even still our PA came to tell to be quiet. Perfect timing cause we were just sitting back down to our homework, and we looked all innocent "what do you mean? we've been perfectly quiet". haha. pretty fun. Now I'm about to go to bed. woosh.
"we've been blowing up
we're the issue""-SF
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
So today the new Switchfoot cd came out. As most of you know, I'm pretty much obsessed. It's not that obsessed as in "oh my gosh he's so hot" it's more obsessed that their music has always found me where I am, no matter where I am, in my life. It has been a constant comfort in my life. I swear whatever Jon writes it's like exactly what i need at the moment.
"This is your life, are you who you wanna be?".... "I dare you to move, I dare you to move. I dare you to pick yourself off of the floor" I am applying for a PA (what equals an RA) position. I am doing it because I want to be a PA, but also because I know it is what God wants me to do, to at least apply. The interview was kinda scary cause it's just me and four other people in leadership, and some of the questions I didn't want to answer. I am making myself do this. I need to make myself do this. I need to move.
"we were meant to live for so much more.... we want more than this world's got to offer. we want more than the wars of our fathers. Everything inside screams for second life" The crazy wonderful miracle that is life is screaming at me more everyday.I cannot believe how active my brain has been in the last few weeks, not about schoolwork usually, but about those crazy wonderful life questions that we all just wanna know the answers to. My sister in law is due to give birth in 2 or 3 weeks, and just thinking about it makes me cry right now! Feeling that baby kick and move inside her is just so wondrous. Does it get any better than this? Can it?
And all this is just a reflection of who we are. Just a glimpse at things, at ideas, at Him. It does get better. Better than inspirational music that makes you want to be a better person, better than the miracle of new life, better than make yourself move into someone you know you should be.
"It was a beautiful letdown
when you found me here
and for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
that's what I'll forever be
and though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasing our tails
and the rising sun
and our dark water planet
spins in a race
where no one wins
and no one's won
I don't believe here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight
and set sail for Kingdome come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down!
Let my foolish pride forever let me down
Easy living, you're not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list?
Easy living, please come and let me down
what a beautiful letdown
painfully uncool
The church of the drop outs, the losers,
the sinners, the failures and the fools.
What a beautiful letdown
are we salt in the would?
Let us sing one true tune"
It takes more than I thought to give it all back to Him.
"oh, i am the second man
oh, i am the second man, now"
"This is your life, are you who you wanna be?".... "I dare you to move, I dare you to move. I dare you to pick yourself off of the floor" I am applying for a PA (what equals an RA) position. I am doing it because I want to be a PA, but also because I know it is what God wants me to do, to at least apply. The interview was kinda scary cause it's just me and four other people in leadership, and some of the questions I didn't want to answer. I am making myself do this. I need to make myself do this. I need to move.
"we were meant to live for so much more.... we want more than this world's got to offer. we want more than the wars of our fathers. Everything inside screams for second life" The crazy wonderful miracle that is life is screaming at me more everyday.I cannot believe how active my brain has been in the last few weeks, not about schoolwork usually, but about those crazy wonderful life questions that we all just wanna know the answers to. My sister in law is due to give birth in 2 or 3 weeks, and just thinking about it makes me cry right now! Feeling that baby kick and move inside her is just so wondrous. Does it get any better than this? Can it?
And all this is just a reflection of who we are. Just a glimpse at things, at ideas, at Him. It does get better. Better than inspirational music that makes you want to be a better person, better than the miracle of new life, better than make yourself move into someone you know you should be.
"It was a beautiful letdown
when you found me here
and for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful letdown
that's what I'll forever be
and though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasing our tails
and the rising sun
and our dark water planet
spins in a race
where no one wins
and no one's won
I don't believe here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight
and set sail for Kingdome come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down!
Let my foolish pride forever let me down
Easy living, you're not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list?
Easy living, please come and let me down
what a beautiful letdown
painfully uncool
The church of the drop outs, the losers,
the sinners, the failures and the fools.
What a beautiful letdown
are we salt in the would?
Let us sing one true tune"
It takes more than I thought to give it all back to Him.
"oh, i am the second man
oh, i am the second man, now"
Monday, February 24, 2003
Dear Jesus,
I wish had some answers. Not THE answer. I know that one. That one's easy. But the answerS. Sometimes i get so sick of it all. I can't wait for the day when i can crawl up on Your lap and You can tell them to me.
-me-
I wish had some answers. Not THE answer. I know that one. That one's easy. But the answerS. Sometimes i get so sick of it all. I can't wait for the day when i can crawl up on Your lap and You can tell them to me.
-me-
There's this part of my personality that in the last few months i'm just beginning to discover. Things need to be solved. You can analyze something to death, and you can talk and talk and talk, but i want to get to the end, and to the simple explanations. I want everything to turn out okay, and I want everyone to just be in agreement.
I get upset and frustrated when I can't get my point across. Most of my arguments come out sounding stupid because i don't know how to articulate them into words, and then there I am sounding ridiculously like a 15 year old. I hate that. Someone should just tell me to shut up.
In other news: the new switchfoot cd comes out tomorrow :) Which just seems really really weird, because i've (we've) been waiting for it for such a long time... since last spring sometime, i've been anticipating it. So you all know what I'm doing tomorrow. I gotta call Best Buy today to see if they are carrying it tomorrow.
"This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?"-Switchfoot
I get upset and frustrated when I can't get my point across. Most of my arguments come out sounding stupid because i don't know how to articulate them into words, and then there I am sounding ridiculously like a 15 year old. I hate that. Someone should just tell me to shut up.
In other news: the new switchfoot cd comes out tomorrow :) Which just seems really really weird, because i've (we've) been waiting for it for such a long time... since last spring sometime, i've been anticipating it. So you all know what I'm doing tomorrow. I gotta call Best Buy today to see if they are carrying it tomorrow.
"This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?"-Switchfoot
