Thursday, January 22, 2004
Why is it that i feel guilty for wanting pure love, more than what everyone else deems as good? Maybe I'm boring? Maybe i'm prude? Maybe I want what's best. And maybe I don't want to get hurt. Maybe I don't want what's cheap and affordable and easy to get.
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
I need new t-shirts.
And sufjan has been a love as of late.
So he needs to have t-shirts. I think they should be like this.. except it should be a navy blue t-shirt and white writing. Very simple..
That way people would say "what is sufjan?"
And sufjan has been a love as of late.
So he needs to have t-shirts. I think they should be like this.. except it should be a navy blue t-shirt and white writing. Very simple..
That way people would say "what is sufjan?"
bass lessons start tomorrow. I'm extremely nervous. It's been so long since my last music lesson (eighth grade- piano). what do we do for an hour!?
I need a creative outlet, and i can't find it. My writing sucks, i can't write music. I don't have the means to paint. i felt this last night and i almost screamed, i was so frustrated.
I got a lot of stuff in the mail yesterday:
cornerstone flyer: dear Lord, I'd really like to go, please? thanks. I'm going to grow up soon, and i fear this might be my last chance.
denison marrs cd.
letter from seth (i almost typed feth, and that would've been cool, cause old S's used to look like f's)
An evaluation form from a family i nannied for. these NEVER get turned in, but it was marked excellent all the way down. yay!
Also: On the last day of walkabout we were supposed to write about what we learned, well, write anything we wanted, and he would mail them to us later in the school year. Got mine yesterday... kinda odd to look at it. I can't even think about what it meant.
listening to: twothirtyeight- "coin laundry loser"
I need a creative outlet, and i can't find it. My writing sucks, i can't write music. I don't have the means to paint. i felt this last night and i almost screamed, i was so frustrated.
I got a lot of stuff in the mail yesterday:
cornerstone flyer: dear Lord, I'd really like to go, please? thanks. I'm going to grow up soon, and i fear this might be my last chance.
denison marrs cd.
letter from seth (i almost typed feth, and that would've been cool, cause old S's used to look like f's)
An evaluation form from a family i nannied for. these NEVER get turned in, but it was marked excellent all the way down. yay!
Also: On the last day of walkabout we were supposed to write about what we learned, well, write anything we wanted, and he would mail them to us later in the school year. Got mine yesterday... kinda odd to look at it. I can't even think about what it meant.
listening to: twothirtyeight- "coin laundry loser"
