Monday, August 04, 2003
Hmmmm.. the eve of... the big... you know.
I moved in today. Crazy stuff cause nobody else was here, and i'm not used to that (i mean, no one else on the hall. the other PAs were around, in their rooms. And I'm already missing people from past halls. Mostly April and Natalie and i miss laughing right now. It's odd cause I'm at school, and i'm not laughing. that's just not right.
Yeah. we leave tomorrow morning at 7:30 for walkabout. We go tomorrow morning to rock climb and repel, and stay overnight. then the next day we drive to where we will hike from. We split up into four groups and go around for four days, a 24 hour solo and then a five mile run at the end.
we just had a dinner/meeting about it. Yeah. uh... social awkwardness? I know who people are. but these are not my friends, and I'm just socially awkward. the whole time we were in the student union i was wondering who i was going to talk to, how long i was going to have to eat by myself. grrrr. i hate it.
it's not that people aren't nice. they are. but they're just not my friends, you know? and half these people have been on leadership before, so they all know each other. and the other half are all friends. bah bah bah.
i think though, once we split into groups it will be better. because smaller groups usually make people closer. so we'll see.
I'm not really nervous anymore, i just want to get it over with. and now i have to sit here all night until it's time to go to bed. meh meh meh. that's like bah bah bah.
PLUS THEY GAVE ALL OF STUDENT LEADERSHIP A FREAKIN' NALGENE BOTTLE!!!
i just bought one. BOOO.
but it's orange and happy looking. everyone's is, so they said to identify your's some way.
what better way to identify mine than with an 'i like switchfoot' sticker. huh? huh??? yeah. no better way, that's what i said to myself. right after i kicked over someone's pop in the student union.
Lord better help me this year, or i'm going to make a complete fool of myself. mmm hmm.
the end. I'll see/talk to you guys next Monday. if you get the chance, say a little prayer for my sanity, physical well being and overall attitude this week. muchas gracias.
oh yeah. I"m taking a small notebook with me this week (they told us to) and i decided to write down some encouraging stuff in it before we left. This is what is in it:
"here's to new beginnings. here's to something more. Here's to you and your dreams and everything you've worked so hard for. here's to all the places we've never been before. here's to summer tours and hardwood floors, to you and your's."-brandtson
"don't give in to all those voices that are telling you about past failures, they're killing you before you've had your chance to live. they're whispering and you cannot win as long as you're listening"-brandtson
"i dare you to move i dare you to move. i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor"-switchfoot
"concrete girl don't fall down in this broken world around you"-switchfoot
"Standing in the shadows of what you were waiting for. you are older now"-aaron sprinkle
think of all the scripts you could have written. think of all the lives you could have placed in the sun. think of loneliness that's overlasting. kid you better make your move and if you don't then you've received the payoff"-the carolines
"therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old is gone, the new has come!"-2 Corinthians 5:17
"And i pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love, that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God"-Ephesians 3:17b-19
he is the same. yesterday. today. and. forever
" ' For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord ' plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you a hope and a future..... You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.' " - Jeremiah 29:11,13
I moved in today. Crazy stuff cause nobody else was here, and i'm not used to that (i mean, no one else on the hall. the other PAs were around, in their rooms. And I'm already missing people from past halls. Mostly April and Natalie and i miss laughing right now. It's odd cause I'm at school, and i'm not laughing. that's just not right.
Yeah. we leave tomorrow morning at 7:30 for walkabout. We go tomorrow morning to rock climb and repel, and stay overnight. then the next day we drive to where we will hike from. We split up into four groups and go around for four days, a 24 hour solo and then a five mile run at the end.
we just had a dinner/meeting about it. Yeah. uh... social awkwardness? I know who people are. but these are not my friends, and I'm just socially awkward. the whole time we were in the student union i was wondering who i was going to talk to, how long i was going to have to eat by myself. grrrr. i hate it.
it's not that people aren't nice. they are. but they're just not my friends, you know? and half these people have been on leadership before, so they all know each other. and the other half are all friends. bah bah bah.
i think though, once we split into groups it will be better. because smaller groups usually make people closer. so we'll see.
I'm not really nervous anymore, i just want to get it over with. and now i have to sit here all night until it's time to go to bed. meh meh meh. that's like bah bah bah.
PLUS THEY GAVE ALL OF STUDENT LEADERSHIP A FREAKIN' NALGENE BOTTLE!!!
i just bought one. BOOO.
but it's orange and happy looking. everyone's is, so they said to identify your's some way.
what better way to identify mine than with an 'i like switchfoot' sticker. huh? huh??? yeah. no better way, that's what i said to myself. right after i kicked over someone's pop in the student union.
Lord better help me this year, or i'm going to make a complete fool of myself. mmm hmm.
the end. I'll see/talk to you guys next Monday. if you get the chance, say a little prayer for my sanity, physical well being and overall attitude this week. muchas gracias.
oh yeah. I"m taking a small notebook with me this week (they told us to) and i decided to write down some encouraging stuff in it before we left. This is what is in it:
"here's to new beginnings. here's to something more. Here's to you and your dreams and everything you've worked so hard for. here's to all the places we've never been before. here's to summer tours and hardwood floors, to you and your's."-brandtson
"don't give in to all those voices that are telling you about past failures, they're killing you before you've had your chance to live. they're whispering and you cannot win as long as you're listening"-brandtson
"i dare you to move i dare you to move. i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor"-switchfoot
"concrete girl don't fall down in this broken world around you"-switchfoot
"Standing in the shadows of what you were waiting for. you are older now"-aaron sprinkle
think of all the scripts you could have written. think of all the lives you could have placed in the sun. think of loneliness that's overlasting. kid you better make your move and if you don't then you've received the payoff"-the carolines
"therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old is gone, the new has come!"-2 Corinthians 5:17
"And i pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love, that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God"-Ephesians 3:17b-19
he is the same. yesterday. today. and. forever
" ' For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord ' plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you a hope and a future..... You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.' " - Jeremiah 29:11,13
