Saturday, December 20, 2003
Hmm. I've been home for a week now. Nothing has been happening, really, which is why i haven't written anything on here. I nannied three times this week. I was sick and puked. I finished Christmas shopping. I went to a bridal shower and a Christmas party. My brother, sister-in-law and niece are here for the weekend. That pretty much sums everything up. I've been reading a bit. I started reading this Kurt Vonnegut book, but haven't really gotten into it. I've been reading "Portraits from the Dead" (polaroids?), which is short stories, so i've been reading that every once in a while. And i got some books about Amish people, which are insteresting. I think I like the non-fiction stuff.. learning about people and how they work socially, etc.
I suppose that is it. That last Nichole Nordeman song I posted is still hitting home. I'm stuck in a financial rut and still owe my parents all their money from when I got my car towed a month ago. Christmas presents tend to take up some money. Hopefully by the end of next week I can pay them their money. hopefully. I want that to be over and behind me. It hurts quite a lot, because now I am so worried about money. I was planning on spending this Christmas break earning money to SAVE to have for next semester, and now it's more of trying to get by.
With 16 credits, 100 practicum hours, a private lesson once a week, PA duties, and church responsibilities for next semester- i have no idea when I'll be able to earn some money. I haven't paid any money for my car this school year so far. It's hard to believe that this next summer is the summer before my senior year. I suppose i should be responsible, but that's the furthest thing from my mind. I want to go to Mexico and Cornerstone, but I don't see Cornerstone happening.
It's so frustrating. And i keep asking God to help me figure it out. And that song keeps reminding me "maybe not, not today.. peace might be another world away"....
oh yeah- and i've got this overbearing situation hanging over my head. Something I'm not sure i'll ever figure out.
I suppose that is it. That last Nichole Nordeman song I posted is still hitting home. I'm stuck in a financial rut and still owe my parents all their money from when I got my car towed a month ago. Christmas presents tend to take up some money. Hopefully by the end of next week I can pay them their money. hopefully. I want that to be over and behind me. It hurts quite a lot, because now I am so worried about money. I was planning on spending this Christmas break earning money to SAVE to have for next semester, and now it's more of trying to get by.
With 16 credits, 100 practicum hours, a private lesson once a week, PA duties, and church responsibilities for next semester- i have no idea when I'll be able to earn some money. I haven't paid any money for my car this school year so far. It's hard to believe that this next summer is the summer before my senior year. I suppose i should be responsible, but that's the furthest thing from my mind. I want to go to Mexico and Cornerstone, but I don't see Cornerstone happening.
It's so frustrating. And i keep asking God to help me figure it out. And that song keeps reminding me "maybe not, not today.. peace might be another world away"....
oh yeah- and i've got this overbearing situation hanging over my head. Something I'm not sure i'll ever figure out.
