Friday, October 25, 2002
Who wants to be a princess? not me.
Someone talked about how great it would be to be a princess.
Yuck. Having people expect you to act a certain way all the time? No thanks. Or expect you to dress a certain way? No. Blaaaah. I'd rather take hard work over that. I think i'd get kinda bored.
Did you know everybody and their dog owns No Doubt's Tragic Kingdom? Just thought I'd point that out.
Tai and I are sitting in her room, listening to Joy Electric.
Tuesday we are seeing Dashboard. I read today in the paper that the show is sold out- 1500 tickets. That's so odd.
Then the next show is... SWITCHFOOT! haha. twice. in a row. and um. i love them.
Which reminds me to buy more tickets for those shows.
I have nothing important to say. I spent the day with my mom, which was nice. I love her so much. I stuffed envelopes for her at the Red Cross, where she works. We went out to lunch, and stuffed some more. We were gonna try and find a scanner for me for my birthday at costco, but they only had a fatty, expensive kind. So i got granola bars instead. That sure is interesting! I bet you're glad I shared.
I'm excited for Halloween. Trick or treating for canned goods, and a party. I hope it's a good party. Stink. it better be. I'm gonna be a hippie, cause Jaime's closet is SO accessible. And wear my birkenstocks. I need to make a daisy chain for my head. or some kinda flower.
Think this is it. I need to do some homework tonight. Namely- read kids' books. Jaime and I might go down to Starbucks to do homework. Dooooowntown. Where all the lights are bright.
the end.
"She said
That i'm the shining star
in her sky
And i feel
That far away"-Brandtson
Someone talked about how great it would be to be a princess.
Yuck. Having people expect you to act a certain way all the time? No thanks. Or expect you to dress a certain way? No. Blaaaah. I'd rather take hard work over that. I think i'd get kinda bored.
Did you know everybody and their dog owns No Doubt's Tragic Kingdom? Just thought I'd point that out.
Tai and I are sitting in her room, listening to Joy Electric.
Tuesday we are seeing Dashboard. I read today in the paper that the show is sold out- 1500 tickets. That's so odd.
Then the next show is... SWITCHFOOT! haha. twice. in a row. and um.
Which reminds me to buy more tickets for those shows.
I have nothing important to say. I spent the day with my mom, which was nice. I love her so much. I stuffed envelopes for her at the Red Cross, where she works. We went out to lunch, and stuffed some more. We were gonna try and find a scanner for me for my birthday at costco, but they only had a fatty, expensive kind. So i got granola bars instead. That sure is interesting! I bet you're glad I shared.
I'm excited for Halloween. Trick or treating for canned goods, and a party. I hope it's a good party. Stink. it better be. I'm gonna be a hippie, cause Jaime's closet is SO accessible. And wear my birkenstocks. I need to make a daisy chain for my head. or some kinda flower.
Think this is it. I need to do some homework tonight. Namely- read kids' books. Jaime and I might go down to Starbucks to do homework. Dooooowntown. Where all the lights are bright.
the end.
"She said
That i'm the shining star
in her sky
And i feel
That far away"-Brandtson
Monday, October 21, 2002
This is just going to a be a stream of thoughts.
Things have slowed down somewhat, which is nice. The last couple of weeks have been hectic with schoolwork and yearbook, and activities.. and now it's slowing down, a huge relief. Even though I still have stuff to do, I'm not quite as worried, and I'm not running around. I got a chance to relax this weekend, and I needed that.
There are times when I slow down, and I look at my life and realize how good it is. There's a couple of things that i think are missing from my life, that'd i'd like to have, but obviously it's not the right time for them, and i can deal with that. I can finally deal with that.
I spent an hour or so on the phone last night with Nick. He's going through some pretty difficult times right now, with girlfriend, job and school, and he's feeling pretty out of it. It all led me to talk to him about my difficult summer, and how I really grew because of it. I came back to school this year with this clear, definitive view of who i am. And i cannot even explain how relaxing and comforting that is.
I'm not popular, and that doesn't matter. I don't have tons of friends, and that doesn't matter. I don't go to all the school activities, no that doesn't matter, mom. I take part in what i think is important, and that includes being a Knight, and being on the social action committee. I'm not about to put on appearances for anyone. I'm a big dork. I laugh at stupid things, and I'm sarcastic. I love the girls on my dorm hall. I love my music more than anyone knows. (I LOST MY FAITH RING!!!) I adore my car. My family is the most important thing.
I've made promises to myself, that I won't break. After stupid, stupid, ridiculous situations, I won't go after a guy. If someone is really interested, they'll let me know. From now on, i live for God and myself. I partake in things to better myself, not so that i can appear cool, hip, or intelligent.
Nick is stuck in a spot where he's not living. And i said that living was in your attitude. If you think you're living day to day, then you are. I remember last year, I was finding God in everything, and how beautiful that is. I told Nick that living was appreciating, and seeing things. It wasn't necessarily DOING what you wanted to be doing, but being for grateful for the air that you're breathing. Last year on campus the leaves were the most beautiful thing. Breathing in fall air is gorgeous. laughing with friends is liberating. Being yourself is freedom.
I remember saying in July that I had a life to live. I had put that on hold for pretty much half a year. Trying to be what i thought he wanted me to be. I stuck myself into a bubble, refusing activities and fun to talk to him. And it ended. And i lost that spring semester. True, I was still with my friends a lot, and I didn't lose them or anything, and i did participate in stuff, but i lost a lot of time i could've spent with them.
I'm Meghan. I won't answer to your expectations.
"And you're always wanting more
A stranger to the shore
You keep a watchful eye on the horizon"-Lewis
Things have slowed down somewhat, which is nice. The last couple of weeks have been hectic with schoolwork and yearbook, and activities.. and now it's slowing down, a huge relief. Even though I still have stuff to do, I'm not quite as worried, and I'm not running around. I got a chance to relax this weekend, and I needed that.
There are times when I slow down, and I look at my life and realize how good it is. There's a couple of things that i think are missing from my life, that'd i'd like to have, but obviously it's not the right time for them, and i can deal with that. I can finally deal with that.
I spent an hour or so on the phone last night with Nick. He's going through some pretty difficult times right now, with girlfriend, job and school, and he's feeling pretty out of it. It all led me to talk to him about my difficult summer, and how I really grew because of it. I came back to school this year with this clear, definitive view of who i am. And i cannot even explain how relaxing and comforting that is.
I'm not popular, and that doesn't matter. I don't have tons of friends, and that doesn't matter. I don't go to all the school activities, no that doesn't matter, mom. I take part in what i think is important, and that includes being a Knight, and being on the social action committee. I'm not about to put on appearances for anyone. I'm a big dork. I laugh at stupid things, and I'm sarcastic. I love the girls on my dorm hall. I love my music more than anyone knows. (I LOST MY FAITH RING!!!) I adore my car. My family is the most important thing.
I've made promises to myself, that I won't break. After stupid, stupid, ridiculous situations, I won't go after a guy. If someone is really interested, they'll let me know. From now on, i live for God and myself. I partake in things to better myself, not so that i can appear cool, hip, or intelligent.
Nick is stuck in a spot where he's not living. And i said that living was in your attitude. If you think you're living day to day, then you are. I remember last year, I was finding God in everything, and how beautiful that is. I told Nick that living was appreciating, and seeing things. It wasn't necessarily DOING what you wanted to be doing, but being for grateful for the air that you're breathing. Last year on campus the leaves were the most beautiful thing. Breathing in fall air is gorgeous. laughing with friends is liberating. Being yourself is freedom.
I remember saying in July that I had a life to live. I had put that on hold for pretty much half a year. Trying to be what i thought he wanted me to be. I stuck myself into a bubble, refusing activities and fun to talk to him. And it ended. And i lost that spring semester. True, I was still with my friends a lot, and I didn't lose them or anything, and i did participate in stuff, but i lost a lot of time i could've spent with them.
I'm Meghan. I won't answer to your expectations.
"And you're always wanting more
A stranger to the shore
You keep a watchful eye on the horizon"-Lewis
