Friday, October 15, 2004
ah. two days at the beach with my lovely roommates. it was foggy and cloudy and cold. we acted like 13 year old girls in the swimming pool. we watched three episodes of freaks and geeks and ate a LOT of ice cream (i won't even tell you how much). We made a surprise visit to a friend's house in the boondocks, we met Stephanie's dad. We ate at a cool cafe.
fun was had by all. Maybe a picture forthcoming, but i highly doubt it.
you know what i was thinking about today at the beach? There are things that are so much easier to say than they are to think about. The example that came to my mind, was that I could easily say "oh, my ex-boyfriend", while wrapping my brain around that thought is unnerving.
Then i thought: "i guess it's better that it's easier to say it, because I have to say it to people all the time, where as wrapping my brain around it is difficult and I can keep that all to myself."
that probably makes no sense.
fun was had by all. Maybe a picture forthcoming, but i highly doubt it.
you know what i was thinking about today at the beach? There are things that are so much easier to say than they are to think about. The example that came to my mind, was that I could easily say "oh, my ex-boyfriend", while wrapping my brain around that thought is unnerving.
Then i thought: "i guess it's better that it's easier to say it, because I have to say it to people all the time, where as wrapping my brain around it is difficult and I can keep that all to myself."
that probably makes no sense.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
"imagine no posessions
i wonder if you can
no need for greed or hunger
a brotherhood of man
imagine all the people
sharing all the world"
i wonder if you can
no need for greed or hunger
a brotherhood of man
imagine all the people
sharing all the world"
Monday, October 11, 2004
I think people hate me right now.
and then i feel bad for who I am and how I go about things.
I think I should take the next few days and spend them by myself.
and then i feel bad for who I am and how I go about things.
I think I should take the next few days and spend them by myself.
if i could change my paradox it would be to the one i've witnessed today.
being closed-minded in your open-mindedness.
being closed-minded in your open-mindedness.
I think one of the worst feelings in the world is taking a test in class, and wanting to cry because you realize how stupid you are.
It's scary how one test can make you reevaluate your career goals.
"maybe i shouldn't be a teacher after all..."
It's scary how one test can make you reevaluate your career goals.
"maybe i shouldn't be a teacher after all..."
Sunday, October 10, 2004
It is hilarious how my 1980 Volvo station can intimidated people.
It's 8:15am and I'm driving through some really thick fog to get to church this morning. I drive a few miles east on a very main thoroughfare to get there, and often times, because the road is SO familiar to me, I can space out. At 8:15am there are not a lot of other cars on the street. I forget the one speed trap and suddenly I'm passing up this small Kia (spectra?). I can tell that as soon as soon as i pass this upper-20's guy that he's looking to see what kind of car passed him up.
An old Volvo? passing me up? Must remedy that! So all the rest of the way down this street this guy has to pass me. And look at me while he does it. Because my little station wagon is so intimidating to your manhood and your nasty little Kia.
And now, an impromptu song from Stephanie on her guitar:
"meghan meghan
do
your
homewoooork
yeah!
(i messed up)
umm
Meghan is my friend
brown hair
blue eyes
full of smiles
(me: you're such a dork)
she calls me names
but i'll ignore them
because i know that she's just trying to cover her own dorkiness
(just kidding)
So Meeee--e-eee--ghan
Meeee-eghan
do your homework
I said-a
do your homework"
It's 8:15am and I'm driving through some really thick fog to get to church this morning. I drive a few miles east on a very main thoroughfare to get there, and often times, because the road is SO familiar to me, I can space out. At 8:15am there are not a lot of other cars on the street. I forget the one speed trap and suddenly I'm passing up this small Kia (spectra?). I can tell that as soon as soon as i pass this upper-20's guy that he's looking to see what kind of car passed him up.
An old Volvo? passing me up? Must remedy that! So all the rest of the way down this street this guy has to pass me. And look at me while he does it. Because my little station wagon is so intimidating to your manhood and your nasty little Kia.
And now, an impromptu song from Stephanie on her guitar:
"meghan meghan
do
your
homewoooork
yeah!
(i messed up)
umm
Meghan is my friend
brown hair
blue eyes
full of smiles
(me: you're such a dork)
she calls me names
but i'll ignore them
because i know that she's just trying to cover her own dorkiness
(just kidding)
So Meeee--e-eee--ghan
Meeee-eghan
do your homework
I said-a
do your homework"
