Friday, July 25, 2003

 
oh yeah!! i meant to do this already. Go look at the wonderful wonderful picture on Carroll's livejournal.

Also. I don't know what is up with the shout out thing. Maybe the people who randomly hosted it decided to pull the plug? maybe it's just down for a while. who knows. You are always welcome to eeeeee-mail mmeeeee.

 
"hee--eyy it's my anthem
looo-oook now i'm dancing
hee-eyy it's my anthem
loo-ook, ma, i'm dancing"

yeah yeah. This never gets old.

um... what is happening..

OH!! I went and saw natalie again last night. I went and saw her last Thursday and then last night, also, i went to visit her. Last week I went to her house, we had dinner with her parents and then went to the underground cafe, where they happened to be a small group of boys having a Bible study upstairs in the loft where we were. Hmm. interesting. we decided to do it again last night to see if they were there again- and THEY WERE. but of course we didn't talk to them. That would be stupid- besides... who really wants to interrupt a Bible study?

Anyway- so natalie and I sat there for an hour or so just talking and drinking our drinks. Mine was a strawberry smoothie.. her's was a DOUGHBOY!!! hahaha. OH YEAH and we laughed. and laughed as I told her about the 11 year old I babysit and his "CHEESE MONKEY" outbursts. And we played battleship where in I ARROWED her little behind into oblivion.

i got up early, went "running" (which is getting a liiiiittle tiny bit better). I sat around on the computer... ate some toast. it was quite a party up in this house this morning. Then i went to desposit el paychecko, and went to the school to get my mail (which i now do once a week on Fridays), and in my box I found:

*A gateway catalog. boring. recycled.
*a pottery barn catalog. too expensive. already saw this one at the house where i babysit. recycled.
*relevant magazine. they just.. uhh... forgot to mail me this issue and i had to e-mail them and say "what up, yo? where's my magazine?" so they promptly sent it first class to moi.
*relevant postcards. i answered an ad and said that i would put some out at my school.
*Time magazine
.... i think that is all. I seem think there was more.. but i'm ... not sure... so ... that's it!

Then i sat in my dad's office flipping through my new magazines.

and then i went to the church were I made the bulletins for sunday, mailed out some stuff and made signs for the walls of the junior high sunday school class. that was fun.

It's so weird when i go to church, because... well I hang out with people my age, I'm the internet a lot with people my age. I see a lot of people who are anti Christian America (do you know what i mean?), and a lot of people who are counter culture it seems.

Anyway. so i see all this online.. and then i go to church and work with Fern, who is over 65 (she's retired) and is the church secretary and we listen to the Christian talk station.. so i listen to Focus on the Family and some other random pastor guy who has guests. This morning was Joshua Harris of the "I kissed dating goodbye" fame.

It's a serious clash of interests and agendas. AHhhahahsgshhahahah. it's really weird. These are both examples of things I do not feel a part of. I'm not entirely big on things like Focus on the Family and these types of programs, but I'm definitely in no way anti-church or anti-christian america. it's too weird to deal with, really.

But i love Fern. She is SO nice. She is such a servant and such a great role model. She's over 65, and works in the church office mostly by herself, doing all those secretary type things. She has had breast cancer and just had cataract surgery and she is involved in worship team at church (either singing or playing the synthesizer)... she's a great woman.

Anyway. that has been my day today. ..... ... i have a job tonight that i don't want to go to. I'm sick of babysitting and i'd rather just sit home, or go through boxes or work on my rug or whatnot.

but once the kids go to bed I can read my new magazines.

Oh yeah- and with my job that has been M-Th the last two weeks (and next week) .... you just know you're working for a good family when the dad plays in a blues band, the kids are named after BB King and Miles Davis, the dad gets packages from Musicians' Friend in the mail, and they own CDs like Ben Folds. C'mon now.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

 
Hm. nothing is really going on. I babysit all day. then i come home. then i sleep. then i wake up really early and go 'running'. then i babysit again. it's a vicious cycle.

Today was funny. In the late afternoon the two boys i babysit (riley and miles) went outside and played in their driveway/garage with some neighborhood boys. There were about 6 of them there, and it was so fun to listen to (and pretend not to watch) their game of pretend. Usually you think that only girls play pretend, but these boys had this sci-fi pretend game going on, buying fake stuff from each other with 50,000 crystals, and having special elements that help them. It was pretty entertaining.

Message boards are wearing me out. I think my interest in them is just gone. I'm just kinda sick of trying to fit in somewhere. I wrote to someone yesterday that basically it's just me trying to find a place to fit into, and I can't do it.. because I don't fit in. It's really awkward, really. For some reason I have just always felt the need to FIT somewhere, and at the beginning of high school i found that place on the internet. not anymore. It's like my life is switching itself around, because I actually have offline (real life) things that I'm feeling a part of- my close friends- my school- and especially my church. I feel important to these people/institutions and I don't to the ones online.

Anyway. I always go onto message boards thinking that I'm going to be some great friend to someone, that I'll be on the inside of someone's inside joke... but it never happens. I need to get over it and get on with my life. And i really think that this coming year that just might happen. Hopefully I'll be so busy with school, my dorm hall, church, and working that I won't have time.

bah bah bah. I finally got to talk to Nick last night. That was good. I was sarcastic and stupid the whole time, but it was fun. I especially loved the part where i was like "hey nick... we gotta talk about something" and he says "yeah" and i struggle to get it out.. and i finally say "you can't come in october", knowing that he would freak out. and he's all "DON"T EVEN!!" haha i crack myself up... cause his plane tickets are non refundable, that's why.

wooooo. I have nothing more to say. Hopefully I get to see Natalie tomorrow niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight! (that's a strong bad "niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight")

mwah.

rotation in car (as in- the last week and a half I have been listening to strictly this in my car, in descending order from most played... these are the only cds i listen to lately):
Mates of State- My Solo Project
Brandtson- Death and Taxes
The Billions- Never Felt This Way Before
Seth's mixed country cds.. oooo i'm a croonnnerrrr
Switchfoot- New Way To Be Human.

I might have to mix it up tomorrow, but the MOS definitely stays. It goes NOWHERE.

 
cheese monkeys

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