Cement Girl

I think perhaps because I didn't have good friends when I was in high school that I make way too much out of the friendships I have. Or that when I hang out with people and we have a good time I get too many warm fuzzies. And I attach too fast or something. And I just wanna be best buds with anyone who will pay me any attention. or something. Or maybe it's the opposite- that I know in a half a year I won't have these people around, or any close friends for that matter. I'm trying to hold so dear and cherish everything and it seems like it's all slipping through my fingers.

And in all the fun we have I wish I could talk to someone about everything. I am so confused, so unstable. I told God to fix it and he hasn't.