Cement Girl

it really hits you like a ton of bricks when you realize you're mediocre at everything. Please don't take this as a pity post, it's really not. just making an observation.

in other news, this was really cool today:

I was practicing bass. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I can take the bass into a classroom, with a piano, and a music stand, and stack three chairs up (to somewhat resemble the height of a stool), and play bass like a normal person. The classrooms down in that area have light sensors, and in the corner of the room where I sit myself down, it can't see me. So every ten or fifteen minutes, the lights just go off, and i have to get up and wave my arm around like an idiot.

So i did that today, and i sat back down, and settle the bass back into my lap again. And i realized that it felt really comfortable, like it was supposed to be there. All of a sudden it seemed natural and almost a part of me.

Weird, i know, but it was a really awesome feeling.