Cement Girl

I've been telling myself all day to get over here and writing something... I feel like i have a lot to write, but... now i'm trying to think what to write about.

I got the PA position, like i already said. I'm extremely excited, but i'm also scared! eek. They picked me for some reason, and now i've gotta do a good job. I always wanted to think that they wouldn't pick me, because I'm not extremely extroverted, and I'm not in some special "in" group, and i don't fit into the leadership stereotype. I wanted to doubt the residential life staff and be angry at them when they did'nt pick me. That post from the 6th is me being down because I was already thinking about them not picking me, and what i would tell myself (you're not good enough, you don't fit in) and how i would retaliate (not apply for leadership again). Funny how things work out. I'm so... stupid. I gotta stop being stupid. In short- I wanted to doubt the residential life department but they really showed me!

What if your heels fell off?

So this weekend was good. Very good. It was just the right amount of mix of everything and just good. Friday I got my letter about being a PA- had a little freak out session in my car, calling people. Then i had a nanny job, and did that all afternoon. Friday night I took Natalie out to the Taco House cause dangit, I just got a PA position and i'm not eating in the cafeteria. Then we went to safeway where we got stalked by a strange guy, and talked about our heels falling off.

Saturday I woke up late, and doodled around, and did homework. I went back to our house and videotaped the walls of my room which I so carefully painted 3 years ago, with scripture and a SF lyric. The house was almost completely empty, and I was by myself. It was actually really creepy and dreary and weird because I was opening drawers and cupboards to see if everything was REALLY gone. then i left. That was just odd. And now i'll never go back cause we're completely out of the house.

Saturday I did a lot of homework and then I took April to see a Carolines concert. Good stuff, good stuff. I convered Aaron Trueb (the lead singer) to the ways of Switchfoot (or at least that's what he told me at the concert... it was from my signatures in e-mails). Reminder to the masses: do not talk the entire show. Please. if you're not going to watch the band- move to the back.

Sunday was church stuff. Good stuff. Good worship. loved it. I spent the afternoon with my family. Rinda's so huge and ready to burst! she's due on thursday.

i did homework last night. Babysat today. Went to classes. did some more homework. talked to a LOT of people on the computer. and now i'm here. I got some good stuff in the mail today! The new Brandtson cd, a cd demo from someone i met online, and a letter from henrie. I guess that's about it.

I really wish that honesty could be taken in the best way. I'm not going to lie about it. Why can't we be friends?

"Halfway down
You always take the long way down"-Brandtson