Cement Girl

I am so indecisive, it isn't even funny. I have been looking forward to moving back into my dorm room for the past three weeks. And today I sat in my bedroom (#2) at home, and looked around and thought "ew. I don't want to start school again." I just want to be by my friends.

Why bedroom #2 you ask? okay. i'm bored. I'll tell you. At our house from 7th grade to when i graduated high school I had my room upstairs. My junior year of HS my parents let me paint it. I chose yellow, stenciled some scripture around the top, did a little sponge paint, etc. The furniture was this cool, old, antiquey stuff, and i have a short wooden rocking chair in there. It was pretty cool. So when I moved out to go to college, my parents made it the guest room, because it has its own bathrom acros the hall.

And then I moved all my junk downstairs into my brother's old room. So that's where all my junk is. That's bedroom #2. All Christmas break I still slept upstairs in my old room. Anyway. that's that.

I'm kinda scared. Thursday night I was not feeling too well after dinner. I went to bed and was feeling this incredible ache in my stomach, and not like cramps either.. it hurt pretty bad, and I just felt like i wanted to throw up, and i couldnt' go to sleep because of it. Well around midnight I did throw up. And then i went to sleep, woke up at 2:45 am and threw up again. The pain in my stomach was gone.. but man...

Friday i was supposed to take my grandma to the fabric store, and i was going to run some other errands. Well I got up and thought I was feeling better. I went to the kitchen to make myself some breakfast, looked in the fridge and just thought "no way. I can't even stand the thought of food right now" But I downed a whole glass of milk cause i was thirsty. I couldn't really stand up without being woozy, so I went back to lay in bed for a while. I got up again a little later and thought "I can do this. I'm not that sick" and thought about going to take a shower. Well i was brushing my teeth and stuff, and thought "no way can i stand up in the shower, i'm sick" so i just leaned over the tub and washed my hair (it really needed it). After that i still felt pretty sick, so I went and laid down in my bed for half an hour or so. I called my grandma and mom and said i wasn't going to be able to take grandma to the store, and called my best friend's house and left a message.

Then i decided to just go veg on the couch downstairs and watch tv. I did that. And then of course, around 11 i threw up. And then again at noon. The worst part about throwing up is when you don't really have anything in your stomach... all I had had to eat/drink Friday was that glass of milk, and then a huge glass of water.

And all I wanted Friday was really really cold water to drink. Lots of it. The only water cold enough that i could find was out of my bathroom sink. Last night as I went to get ready for bed (I was feeling much better yesterday and ate dinner and some ice cream... that sounded nice and cold), i was taking ALL these swigs of water out of the faucet, cause i was so thirsty.

Agh. this is more than anyone wants to know. Today i moved back into the dorm. I just moved a lot of my stuff in, my clothes and amp and junk. I'm going to stay the night at home tonight, because i have to get up and go to church tomorrow. Tomorrow afternoon we have an open house to sell our house, so of course today has been this huge cleaning day for that. I sure hope we have a lot of people come through or else my mom might have a breakdown. gah. Anyway... that is all the ordeal i can deal with right now. Tomorrow night i will be back in the dorm, safe and sound.

"The green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you
I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter now I met you
And honey you should know
That I could never go on without you"-Coldplay